As a child, I thought big and I dreamt even bigger, as most of us do. But, my thoughts and dreams shrunk in size as I matured. Life experiences deflated me, people cautioned me, and I succumbed to fear and self-doubt, as most of us do.
Well-meaning mentors, family members and friends told me "don't bite off more than you can chew", "be practical", "you can't support yourself doing that", "life is hard, plan ahead", "work hard, then work harder" and all those sorts of advice comments we have all heard during our lifetimes.
Plans I had went awry. Unexpected problems interferred with my life. Failures knocked me down. Doubts crept in. Fears took hold. And, I began to think and dream smaller, then even smaller. I was like a balloon losing air. By my early twenties that balloon was languishing on the ground, mostly deflated.
I could put blame on others for poor advice and for instilling fears. I could blame life itself for what did not occur that I wanted to happen and what did occur that I did not want to happen or could not even have imagined happening. And, I did dish out the blame for many years. But, that did not benefit me in any way. In fact, the blame game just made me feel bitter and angry and even more defeated. Why try when I cannot control much, if hardly anything, that happens in my life?
The biggest lie I was told by all those well-meaning advice-givers was that I could control my life. I could plan and chart a life course and with diligence follow it precisely to great successes. Not true - at least for me. I know some who have appeared to do just that. They decided at an early age what they wanted to do in life, they went to school or obtained the experience and training they needed, they worked hard or at least diligently in their chosen profession and lived a life that was successful on many levels. Some may not have done so well in other areas which are not so easily planned. Some had relationships and family lives that were filled with disappointment and unexpected consequences, but some were fortunate to have personal lives just as or even more successful and fulfilling as their professional ones. I used to hate those people. I was filled with jealousy that they walked a clear path with no pitfalls or unexpected detours. Why did they seem so blessed and I was not? Of course, if I dared looked honestly at my life, in spite of the unexpected occurrences and roadblocks along the way, my life appeared to be much better than the lives of many who seem to walk with a dark cloud of impending doom over their heads.
Comparing my life to someone else's was a waste of time and emotions. Now, I see that we are all here for different reasons, to have different experiences and to learn and grow from all the pitfalls, detours and problems that litter our paths. We can plan and dream (planning and dreaming are good), but unless we are in touch with our inner guidance system, unless we are incorporating what we learn into our daily practices, unless we are being grateful for all the many blessings in our lives (even if it appears others have more blessings), and unless we are open to change and adjustments, we will always seem to be failing and losing our way. Of course, we aren't. We are moving forward just as we need to. We are having experiences to learn just what we need to know. We feel stuck, we feel lost, we feel defeated, but that is because we are out of touch with who we really are and what we are here to accomplish. Tap into your inner guidance system or to your higher power or to your intuition and your life will become smoother and clearer. Too often we learn that lesson later in life and then we feel we missed the boat. The knowledge and connection came too late. Now, we have something new to hold us back. Age. I am too old, I can't start over now, there isn't enough time left to do what I want to do, I no longer have the energy I need. . .
Thoughts like that are new barriers that we create for ourselves. I know I often feel that way. I am too old now. I wish I had learned all this when I was younger and my life could have been so much more, so much fuller, so much better. I wish, I wish, I wish. Wishing is NOT dreaming. Wishing is a terrible waste of time and energy. I am working hard to replace wishes with dreams and then taking those dreams to a new level where I actualize them through The Law of Attraction. And, still, sometimes I feel that it is all moving too slow because I am getting older every day and, really, how much time do I have left? That is when I try to remember that my great-aunt lived to be 104 and my man's mother will be 93 in a month. Maybe I have lots of time left and maybe I don't, but I prefer to bet that I do. Otherwise, I will just sit here passively and decay. Nope, not appealing at all.
Once, while I was attending a prosperity class, I had a dream in which myself and another class member were standing before a building with a sign on it that said "The Center for Peace and Prosperity". I woke up from that dream, remembering it in detail, and knowing, without a doubt, that it was the woman standing with me before that glorious Center for Peace and Prosperity who had created it. I gave her full credit for the Center although no words were exchanged in my dream; there was no signage indicating she was the founder of the Center; there was absolutely NO REASON for me to believe she was the creator of the Center. But, that is what I thought. Why? Because I could not imagine myself doing something so grand; I could not accept that I was capable of such a glorious creation. I was thinking small, dreaming small, living small.
I recently had a very similar dream. I saw a building, although it looked different than the one in my original dream and, in fact, it looked very similar to a building in Mount Dora, and on that building was a sign that said "The Center for Peace and Prosperity". I stood there alone. I stood there feeling proud. When I awoke, I knew that in my dream I was the creator of the The Center for Peace and Prosperity. Perhaps I was also the creator in my original dream, but I was unable, at that time, to seem myself as a creator or a builder or a manifestor. So, I gave the credit to someone else.
Now I can see myself that way. Now I can give myself credit for something that I very much dream of manifesting in Mount Dora. Besides my home, my retirement and my new life in Mount Dora, I can now imagine part of that new life being "The Center for Peace and Prosperity". Yes, I can see that. Yes, I can live bigger.
Well-meaning mentors, family members and friends told me "don't bite off more than you can chew", "be practical", "you can't support yourself doing that", "life is hard, plan ahead", "work hard, then work harder" and all those sorts of advice comments we have all heard during our lifetimes.
Plans I had went awry. Unexpected problems interferred with my life. Failures knocked me down. Doubts crept in. Fears took hold. And, I began to think and dream smaller, then even smaller. I was like a balloon losing air. By my early twenties that balloon was languishing on the ground, mostly deflated.
I could put blame on others for poor advice and for instilling fears. I could blame life itself for what did not occur that I wanted to happen and what did occur that I did not want to happen or could not even have imagined happening. And, I did dish out the blame for many years. But, that did not benefit me in any way. In fact, the blame game just made me feel bitter and angry and even more defeated. Why try when I cannot control much, if hardly anything, that happens in my life?
The biggest lie I was told by all those well-meaning advice-givers was that I could control my life. I could plan and chart a life course and with diligence follow it precisely to great successes. Not true - at least for me. I know some who have appeared to do just that. They decided at an early age what they wanted to do in life, they went to school or obtained the experience and training they needed, they worked hard or at least diligently in their chosen profession and lived a life that was successful on many levels. Some may not have done so well in other areas which are not so easily planned. Some had relationships and family lives that were filled with disappointment and unexpected consequences, but some were fortunate to have personal lives just as or even more successful and fulfilling as their professional ones. I used to hate those people. I was filled with jealousy that they walked a clear path with no pitfalls or unexpected detours. Why did they seem so blessed and I was not? Of course, if I dared looked honestly at my life, in spite of the unexpected occurrences and roadblocks along the way, my life appeared to be much better than the lives of many who seem to walk with a dark cloud of impending doom over their heads.
Comparing my life to someone else's was a waste of time and emotions. Now, I see that we are all here for different reasons, to have different experiences and to learn and grow from all the pitfalls, detours and problems that litter our paths. We can plan and dream (planning and dreaming are good), but unless we are in touch with our inner guidance system, unless we are incorporating what we learn into our daily practices, unless we are being grateful for all the many blessings in our lives (even if it appears others have more blessings), and unless we are open to change and adjustments, we will always seem to be failing and losing our way. Of course, we aren't. We are moving forward just as we need to. We are having experiences to learn just what we need to know. We feel stuck, we feel lost, we feel defeated, but that is because we are out of touch with who we really are and what we are here to accomplish. Tap into your inner guidance system or to your higher power or to your intuition and your life will become smoother and clearer. Too often we learn that lesson later in life and then we feel we missed the boat. The knowledge and connection came too late. Now, we have something new to hold us back. Age. I am too old, I can't start over now, there isn't enough time left to do what I want to do, I no longer have the energy I need. . .
Thoughts like that are new barriers that we create for ourselves. I know I often feel that way. I am too old now. I wish I had learned all this when I was younger and my life could have been so much more, so much fuller, so much better. I wish, I wish, I wish. Wishing is NOT dreaming. Wishing is a terrible waste of time and energy. I am working hard to replace wishes with dreams and then taking those dreams to a new level where I actualize them through The Law of Attraction. And, still, sometimes I feel that it is all moving too slow because I am getting older every day and, really, how much time do I have left? That is when I try to remember that my great-aunt lived to be 104 and my man's mother will be 93 in a month. Maybe I have lots of time left and maybe I don't, but I prefer to bet that I do. Otherwise, I will just sit here passively and decay. Nope, not appealing at all.
Once, while I was attending a prosperity class, I had a dream in which myself and another class member were standing before a building with a sign on it that said "The Center for Peace and Prosperity". I woke up from that dream, remembering it in detail, and knowing, without a doubt, that it was the woman standing with me before that glorious Center for Peace and Prosperity who had created it. I gave her full credit for the Center although no words were exchanged in my dream; there was no signage indicating she was the founder of the Center; there was absolutely NO REASON for me to believe she was the creator of the Center. But, that is what I thought. Why? Because I could not imagine myself doing something so grand; I could not accept that I was capable of such a glorious creation. I was thinking small, dreaming small, living small.
I recently had a very similar dream. I saw a building, although it looked different than the one in my original dream and, in fact, it looked very similar to a building in Mount Dora, and on that building was a sign that said "The Center for Peace and Prosperity". I stood there alone. I stood there feeling proud. When I awoke, I knew that in my dream I was the creator of the The Center for Peace and Prosperity. Perhaps I was also the creator in my original dream, but I was unable, at that time, to seem myself as a creator or a builder or a manifestor. So, I gave the credit to someone else.
Now I can see myself that way. Now I can give myself credit for something that I very much dream of manifesting in Mount Dora. Besides my home, my retirement and my new life in Mount Dora, I can now imagine part of that new life being "The Center for Peace and Prosperity". Yes, I can see that. Yes, I can live bigger.
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