5/08/12 Manifesting a Maelstrom

My life has been in turmoil - not just the passing of my mother and the associated emotions and matters to handle, but also a firestorm of problems in my household.  For the last few days, I’ve been living on a never-stopping, never-slowing-down roller coaster of emotions.  Several times, I thought my life, as it is now, would change forever and in a way that seemed like a huge personal loss.  Perhaps all the craziness was energies of the extra large full moon on Saturday, perhaps it was the result of some long-marinating passive-aggressive behavior in my home.  A shake-up was long overdue.  The smoke has settled and, with the exception of a few emotional scars, we are all still alive and all still together. 

After telling a friend about some of the drama, she said, “You manifested a maelstrom!”  Probably an overstatement, but not too far off base.  When I put forth my Manifesting Mount Dora request to the Universe, I was asking for change.  When I began my search for positivity in all areas of my life, I was asking for change.  We cannot always see all the bits and pieces that have to be altered to bring about the needed changes that will allow a requested desire to manifest.  Just changing ourselves may not be enough.  If areas of your life are marbled with negativity caused by others, they will probably experience a shake-up, too.  To allow your manifestation, the Universe will help open a positive pathway and maybe those with negative attitudes who were traveling with you will be pushed in a different direction.  Of course, this also allows them to make positive changes for themselves, but if they choose not to, you may part ways.  So, in essence, you may be unintentionally “manifesting a maelstrom”.  You/me did not plan it or consciously ask for it and will not enjoy it, but the maelstrom will come nonetheless.  Sounds rough and, believe me, it has been.  Sounds a little unfair, but the Universe is just doing what was requested. 

I am still not sure how to deal with the fallout of the maelstrom and am not even sure the upheaval has ended.  All I can do is work to stay grounded, rested and positive - all very difficult right now - and hope that those I love will do the same and continue on the same path as me. 

I received the following email from The Secret website and shared it with someone:

A Secret Scrolls message from Rhonda Byrne
Creator of The Secret

From The Secret Daily Teachings

To allow the Universe to move you in your life to happier and better things, you are going to need to look around you and appreciate the good things here and now. Seek the beautiful things and count the blessings of where you are. Dissatisfaction will not bring the happier and the better into your life. Dissatisfaction roots you to the spot where you currently are, but appreciation for what you have attracts the happier and better to you.
Remember that you are a magnet! Appreciation attracts appreciation!

May the joy be with you,
Rhonda Byrne
The Secret... bringing joy to billions

My sharing seems to have made a difference and making a difference is really what we should be manifesting.  Making the difference in the lives of those we love.  Making a difference in the world.  Those are the true manifestations of life.  Share a positive email, smile at a stranger, hug someone, cry with someone, let someone cry with you.  Make a difference.  Mount Dora may be my goal, but making a difference, I hope, will be my legacy. 

4/3/12 Roots

Since last week was challenging, to say the least, and there were times I felt a little overwhelmed with this whole “being happy to manifest” project, I decided to go back to my “roots”.  By that, I mean to go back to when I first started learning about the Law of Attraction and manifesting.  I dug out The Secret by Rhonda Byrne and read it again.  Truthfully though, my earliest roots of manifestation education, besides the first conversation with my neighbor Kathy about Edwene Gaines, was when my man chose the book “The Celestine Prophecy” by James Refield for me to read.  Let’s take a trip back in time. 

With no knowledge of the Law of Attraction, I managed to manifest a move and a new place to live without knowing what I was doing.  To me, that just proves the power of the Law of Attraction.  I was so happy with my new daughter that I climbed out of my martial funk and began living again.  My vibrations went from ultra-negative to uber-positive and, without realizing it, I was telling the Universe that I wanted a new life and the Universe responded to my request.  But, as often is the case, my new life came with new challenges and worries and I dragged along some of the old ones as left-over baggage.  I was happier, but had even more worries. 

A year or so after a new man entered my life (I manifested him, too!), we were in St. Augustine for a little R&R and continued a new-found tradition of choosing books for one another.  We were in the bookstore Second Read and he chose “The Celestine Prophecy” by James Redfield.  He’d never heard of the book, as neither had I, but was drawn to it and thought I would enjoy reading it.  I read that book into the dawning hours of the morning.  I researched similar books online thinking I would find none or only a few and was amazed when I found lists and lists of books that “people who read The Celestine Prophecy” also read.  I began reading them, all the while thinking I was an odd-ball because, other than my neighbor Kathy, I did not believe there was anyone in my city who knew about manifesting and The Law of Attraction.   

I had a friend who shared the same profession and hometown as Kathy, so I introduced them and sat in amazement as they started talking about all this manifestation stuff that I thought was a true secret and which I had no idea my other friend new about.  Then, at a party, another long time friend struck up a conversation with the other two and I found out that she also knew what they knew.  I was shocked.  How could it be that my friends had these beliefs, this knowledge, and had never talked to me about it?  As they explained, they were careful who they talked to about the Law of Attraction because mainstream people, a/k/a their work cohorts, would think they were nuts.   

Shortly after, the video of The Secret was released.  My neighbor invited my man and me and my other two friends as well as a room full of other people to watch the movie.  I could not believe all those people already knew about manifesting and were wanting to learn more.  From there, I progressed to book after book, video after video, class after class.  People I did not know would enter my life to discuss the Law of Attraction.  Synchronicity was in action. 

Yet, still I was struggling with many problems.  I worked to release my worries, to believe that answers would arrive.  And, they did.  One after another, solutions appeared.  And, I learned that just because an answer is provided, it does not mean that everything falls into place easily, especially when you fall back into old routines of “not allowing”.  There was work, lots of work.  I was overwhelmed usually, confused often.  But, I made progress, I learned so much and little by little the problems resolved and my life became less stressful.  I fell into complacency and although I was still reading and studying, I was not doing as much.  And that is why I felt the need to return to the roots of my adventure.

Actually, I think The Secret is one of the less profound books/movies about the Law of Attraction.  It is flashy and presented in sound bites that play well with modern audiences, and provides just a superficial explanation of manifesting.  But, it does hit the highlights and I enjoyed reading it again.  It was nice to revisit the excitement I felt when I first read it.

So, how am I doing?  Today I was tired and a little sad and often irritated.  I listened to music and repeated affirmations to bring up my vibrations.  Should have taken a walk, but I didn’t.  Did I become happy?  Not really, but I became less sad and less tired.  Sometimes happy is just not attainable today - tomorrow, yes, but not today.  Sometimes the stars and our planets are not in alignment, sometimes our body chemistry is out of whack, and sometimes we just feel tired of all the junk going on around us.  We shut down or get wound up or just can’t stir up enough interest or energy to go beyond the day’s necessary tasks.  Downtime is required.  Why?  Because being happy takes effort and commitment and time, especially when you are not accustomed to being happy, or are at least used to just being neutral.  At some point, happy may become my default, no matter what gunk is swirling around me.   But, right now, it still takes effort. 

My happiest time today? Writing this blog.  I feel better than I have all day.  I feel stronger.  
At this moment, I wish I could start my day over and react differently than I did.  But, by thinking that, I am dwelling on the past.  It is better to just appreciate what I am feeling right now - because I am happy right now.  While writing I removed myself from the negativity and chaos and I was able to be involved in something I love.  That is why creativity is one of the best forms of manifestation there is.  When in a creative mode, we are centered and focused, naturally tuning out all the superficial noise and chattering and unconsciously  shaking off all the negative vibrations and toxic energies.  If you want to put the Law of Attraction into action, find something creative to do on a regular basis.  Give yourself that gift of happiness.