It is early evening and I am home from work, feeling sluggish and stuck. My day was fine - work went well, I accomplished all and a little more than I had planned and I encountered no unusual roadblocks or problems. My health is the same as always. Today, I experienced nothing particularly bad or depressing or discouraging and yet I feel heavy and slightly annoyed and a little sad and I am not sure why.
Our feelings do not always make sense. This “down” feeling I have right now may have nothing to do with my day or my week. Perhaps it is leftover from a disturbing or sad dream I had last night and cannot recall. Maybe my body chemistry is off in some way I cannot ascertain. Perhaps my planets are out of alignment or maybe this is an emotionally challenging time of my astrological year. Maybe my moodiness is the result of a buildup of issues and concerns and today is the day I feel the weight of them, even without being consciously aware of the load of unresolved matters that I carry every day.
No matter how positive we try to be, we all have “stuff” that we carry around - unresolved problems, other people’s negativity, concerns about the future. We manage to stay basically happy by not dwelling on problems we either cannot change or cannot change now and by not absorbing or responding to the negativity of those around us. And, that works most days. Today it is not working for me - for whatever reason. I am not consciously dwelling on any problems, but I feel as though I am weighed down with concerns. I’ve tried unsuccessfully to lighten up today, so I am deciding to just let go of trying to “fix” my feelings. I am just going to accept that I feel this way and that it will not last. Tomorrow is another day.
Remembering that each day is a new beginning is one of the most positive thoughts you can have when today is a disappointment or you just don’t feel up to par. My responsibilities may be the same tomorrow as they are today, perhaps the problems I have today will carry forward to tomorrow, and tomorrow I will likely deal with all or many of the same people that I deal with every day, but tomorrow I will be different. My chemistry will be better, my planets will be in alignment, my dreams the night before will have been pleasant. Tomorrow I will have a new beginning and the day may not seem that much different than today, but I will feel different.
When I was clinically depressed in the past, the one thing I knew for sure was that tomorrow would not be different, unless it was worse. I knew that I would not feel different, unless I felt worse. New beginnings did not exist for me. Life was just a long series of disappointing, sad and annoying moments strung together. Now, I know that a down feeling is temporary. I know a not-so-stellar day is just that - one day. This day will come to a close and tomorrow I know, without a doubt, I will have a new beginning because each day is just that - a new beginning. Today I am not at my best for manifesting Mount Dora or anything else, but tomorrow I will be. Sometimes we have to be gentle and understanding with ourselves. I accept that I am a little down for unknown reasons and my attempts to feel better did not work. I will not beat myself up over it. I will allow myself to just “be” as I am right now. I will rest and know that tomorrow is a new beginning.
Our feelings do not always make sense. This “down” feeling I have right now may have nothing to do with my day or my week. Perhaps it is leftover from a disturbing or sad dream I had last night and cannot recall. Maybe my body chemistry is off in some way I cannot ascertain. Perhaps my planets are out of alignment or maybe this is an emotionally challenging time of my astrological year. Maybe my moodiness is the result of a buildup of issues and concerns and today is the day I feel the weight of them, even without being consciously aware of the load of unresolved matters that I carry every day.
No matter how positive we try to be, we all have “stuff” that we carry around - unresolved problems, other people’s negativity, concerns about the future. We manage to stay basically happy by not dwelling on problems we either cannot change or cannot change now and by not absorbing or responding to the negativity of those around us. And, that works most days. Today it is not working for me - for whatever reason. I am not consciously dwelling on any problems, but I feel as though I am weighed down with concerns. I’ve tried unsuccessfully to lighten up today, so I am deciding to just let go of trying to “fix” my feelings. I am just going to accept that I feel this way and that it will not last. Tomorrow is another day.
Remembering that each day is a new beginning is one of the most positive thoughts you can have when today is a disappointment or you just don’t feel up to par. My responsibilities may be the same tomorrow as they are today, perhaps the problems I have today will carry forward to tomorrow, and tomorrow I will likely deal with all or many of the same people that I deal with every day, but tomorrow I will be different. My chemistry will be better, my planets will be in alignment, my dreams the night before will have been pleasant. Tomorrow I will have a new beginning and the day may not seem that much different than today, but I will feel different.
When I was clinically depressed in the past, the one thing I knew for sure was that tomorrow would not be different, unless it was worse. I knew that I would not feel different, unless I felt worse. New beginnings did not exist for me. Life was just a long series of disappointing, sad and annoying moments strung together. Now, I know that a down feeling is temporary. I know a not-so-stellar day is just that - one day. This day will come to a close and tomorrow I know, without a doubt, I will have a new beginning because each day is just that - a new beginning. Today I am not at my best for manifesting Mount Dora or anything else, but tomorrow I will be. Sometimes we have to be gentle and understanding with ourselves. I accept that I am a little down for unknown reasons and my attempts to feel better did not work. I will not beat myself up over it. I will allow myself to just “be” as I am right now. I will rest and know that tomorrow is a new beginning.
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